It’s in the quiet moments not filled with activity and when I’m not distracted that it hits me.
One of the most difficult parts about being divorced at this stage of my life is dealing with the “empty nest” syndrome. Don’t get me wrong, I’m fully aware all parents go through it. The fact that I have to transition into this chapter is not what bothers me. I know it’s unavoidable.
What’s difficult is most people go through this with a partner to share the burden. I never expected to have to deal with the natural separation from my kids alone. There are moments when I feel a sense of intense loneliness; an immense void that cannot be filled with any amount of activity, friends, or even family.
The lack of a partner, companionship, a fellow traveler with whom to share a deep love during this transition may be one of the most painful things I experience on the daily.
It is so difficult to adequately describe what is going on in my heart and soul. But this is the best I can do.
Beck captures it pretty well:
I’m so tired of being alone
These penitent walls are all I’ve known
Songbird calling across the water
Inside my silent asylum
Oh don’t leave me on my own
Left me standing all alone
Cut me down to size so I can fit inside
Lies that will divide us both in time
See the turncoat on his knees
A vagabond that no one sees
When a moon is throwing shadows
You can’t save the ones you’ve caught in battle
Oh don’t leave me on my own
Left me standing all alone
Cut me down to size so I can fit inside
Lies you try to hide behind your eyes
Don’t leave me on my own
Don’t leave me on my own
So cut me down to size so I can fit inside
Lies that will divide us both in time
Don’t leave me on my own
Don’t leave me on my own
reylo: 
There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel shinning so bright and beautiful 😊